supremesaikou | (no subject)

Still worried about your mother? I'm sure she's trying her best to be a good mother. She just is.. a bit weird, even for here.

... I'm trying not to think about what might happen concerning her if I decide to step outside outside of classes.

So no, this Saikou-sama is not speaking about that.

Well, just know that she's probably really upset with herself over what she did to you. She called herself a horrible mother shortly after when she did whatever she did to you. If you go talk with her, I'm sure she'll be understanding. If you don't want to go alone, I can go with you.

But what were you talking about?

... No need.

Just... Very odd thoughts keep coming into my mind when I'm not paying attention, or doing much of anything. While what I keep thinking about isn't actually "odd" in itself... The fact that I would be thinking about them? Quite strange, quite strange, quite strange.

You can't just live by hiding out in your room all day, except for classes. You need to face your fears.

What kind of thoughts?

She is already talking to me so there is no need.

... Thoughts about how it would be like if I were just... Normal, I guess.

Well, I more meant in person. But that's fine too.

Normal... I was normal, or rather, thought I was normal.. It seems I was destined for something since I was born though, so I guess I never was normal.

No need for in-person.

... Normalcy isn't needed anyway!

Okay.

And what is normal around here is quite abnormal elsewhere. But it would be nice for this place to have been normal, with simple duels that don't do anything to you if you lose, and no need to worry about the world being destroyed because of someone.

... P-perhaps.

... And if that damn monster hadn't decided to keep everything the same...

Shikou kept everything the same when the world was burnt and reset?

What do you think you would be like if you were just a normal person?

Yes, and he's an absolute idiot for going and doing so! Wasting such wonderful potential... Keh!

... I... I don't know! I try to not remember what I keep imagining. It's all just... Nonsense, anyway.

Yeah. He could have done so much better by making it so that the world isn't ending every week.

Why is it nonsense? It's just thoughts you have.

... Exactly!

Sometimes, even this Saikou-sama's thoughts can be considered a form of "nonsense".

So you are normal, if you have thoughts that you consider nonsense.

... It's more normal in a different sense.

But still normal.

... Mff... In a thought-pattern aspect, that's all!

I keep imagining more... Literal aspects, I think. ... Also I think I keep imagining more normal physical aspects, as well...

... Still, it doesn't matter, anyway.

Well, if you ever want to talk about it in-depth with me, I'll be here.

... R-right.

Thinking about what?

... ~~Stay calm, stay calm, stay calm...~~

Just... Odd things. Yet... Not very odd in basis, keep popping into my mind when I'm not paying attention. That's all. Really.

Odd things?

... Yes. Very odd things. Very odd trains of thought. Strangely enough about how things would be if I were just... "Normal". "Average".

... B-but it's nonsense for me to be thinking about that sort of thing.

Oh?

... "Oh?" to what in particular.

Why normal and average?

... I don't really know! It just keeps... Popping into my mind, and I keep imagining it. ... And while it is admittedly almost pleasant to this Saikou-sama there is no need for me to be daydreaming about some nonsense like that.

Why not try it?

... Try it?

Try being normal?

... Ignoring that it is easier said than done to this Saikou-sama, why would I want to try it?

Change is good?

... P... Perhaps, but...

It's just some nonsense imaginings, as it is.